Chalte Rehna Hai...

Kuch batein, kuch meethi yadein..Zindagi ki ye saugatein..
Dil me samete huye chalna hai...
Aansoo aaye agar palkon pe..
Unko thame chalna hai...
Jane nahi dena hai kisiko..
Sabko sang lekar chalna hai...
Bas yehi gham hai rukne nahi deti zindagi..
Kehti hai iss raah pe sirf chalte hi rehna hai...

Paint My Love

The senseless ramblings that goes on in mind

The mindless thoughts crossing over,

The images that form in mind

The feelings I can not get over.

The face that appears

Whenever I close my eyes,

The love that overwhelms me

That sometimes makes me cry.

I keep drawing something randomly

The thoughts does not stop now,

The space around me is a canvas

My hands act like a brush now.

I can choose from a variety of colors

And yet white only seems appropriate,

I want to paint my love

And to get it reflected.

I want to show my happiness

I want to go with the flow,

I want to get the message across

I want to dance and show.

Jazbaat

Kehte hain jazbaaton ki koi seema nahi hoti

Kisika khyaal rakhne ki koi hadh nahi hoti.

Pyaar rang badalta hai

Har roop-rang mein mil jata hai.

Kisiko chaho jab toot kar

Baatein fir mayne nahi rakhti,

Nigaahein sab keh deti hain

Lavzon ki zarurat nahi hoti.

Koi kareeb aata hai jitna

Dooriyan jab wo kam karta hai,

Na chahte huye bhi

Na jane kyu ek darr sa lagta hai.

Paas aana chahe bhi dil to

Koi ehsaas usse rokta hai,

Doori banaye rakhna chaho bhi to

Koi ehsaas chup kara jata hai.

Bas yuhi likhte-likhte

Shabd khatm ho jate hain,

Aur jazbaaton ka samandar

Uthal-puthal hi reh jata hai.

Losing The 'Us'

Wrote this on 7th August 2004 at a Poetry Competition.

God created this world and human beings

Filled with emotions that would guide their deeds,

Established some relationships which would bind them to some rules

And their hearts were like emotion’s pool.

They used honesty against lies

Which helped them maintain their ties,

Their love erased all sorts of anger and hatred

From the world God so beautifully created;

But these emotions exist no more,

For they have vanished from the heart’s core.

The feeling of unity which bound people together

Have now evaporated from their hearts,

Only words like ‘I’ and ‘Me’ exist

These days on the people’s cards.

We stand against our friends now

Believing this would lower their self-esteem,

But unknowingly, without realizing

We are letting down our own prestige.

People, these days, have forgotten

That they are social animals,

And with their friends’ help and unity

They can stand against all odds as one.

Losing our friends, Losing the ‘US’

Does not mean we are great,

Instead we are losing ourselves,

Our inner self, under our own weight.

The Rumbling Heart

Wrote in 2007.

In the dim light seeping through the window,

I see the moonlight fading away,

Making unsuccessful attempts of pushing away those thoughts

Which have lately given me a few sleepless nights.

Some rules, rumbling my heart to break them,

Some words dying to be spoken out,

The pain increasing in folds,

I still try to control,

Hoping to find the lost calmness,

Knowing not, where & how I lost them.

This sense of belonging, understanding, and purity

Was missing, About which the realization had not set in.

Now when these feelings crave to reach the heart it feels for,

Who & how am I to stop this, I do not know!!!

Do I Still Love You?

Wrote on 17th March 2008.

My eyes still shine when I see you

My heart still beats faster,

My thoughts wander around you

The wait still gets longer.

Do I still love you?

The answer seems so obvious,

I still can feel the pain

The feeling still lingers.

When I look in the mirror

I still see you in my eyes,

You touched me in a way

No one can touch me ever.

Why do I still love you?

I ask myself at times,

Then out comes the reply

I will always love you, forever and ever.

Khamoshi

Wrote on 7th December 2006.

पलकों को झुकाए हम चल तो दिए

रास्तें मगर अनजान हैं,

थमी सी कुछ बातें हैं

पर शब्दों से हम अनजान हैं.

मुस्कुराती फिज़ा बदलती है रंग

किसी धुंए में मिल जाते हैं,

सपने दिल के दिल में ही

ना जाने क्यूँ रह जाते हैं.

ख़ुशी है ज़ज्बों में आज

नर्म कुछ एहसास हैं,

खुद में समाते हुए से आज

मेरे होठों के अलफ़ाज़ हैं.

Dil Ke Jazbaat

Wrote on 5th May 2010.

अफसाने बहुत हैं इस दिल के

सुनने बैठोगे तो रात हो जाएगी,
कलम लिखते थकते नहीं
वरना कागजों की दीवार बन जाएगी.


पल-पल में सपने बदलते हैं
पल-पल में चेहरे,
हिसाब लेना चाहोगे अगर दुखों का
तो सागर से मुलाक़ात हो जाएगी.


कहने और समझने के दरमियाँ
जो एहसास उभर कर आता है,
शब्दों में बयां करने की कोशिश की
तो ये रात ही गुज़र जाएगी.

Do Not Let Go

Lost in the realms of my mind today

I think and analyse,

What distances have I created

Between you and me?

You so much do not know me

Because I have not let you through,

There are many guards remaining

That I have not let down yet.

What am I afraid of?

What are my inhibitions here?

I would sure want you to know someday

What goes on inside here.

As of now you will have to wait

For the doors to open up,

The keys are hidden somewhere

It is your task to find out.

You shifted something, removed a layer

When you called me your best friend,

It is amazing how you did that

That was the hardest part.

So now I know it is going to be easy

But do have patience,

I might resist the interference

But just do not let go.

Feelings

Wrote it on 7th September 2009.

I do not remember the last time I slept so peacefully

where, for a change, I did not see that usual dream,

which had been haunting me for ages now

And now, I feel, the curse has been broken

something pure has evolved inside me

the magic of which can do wonders.

I wanted to know, how this change happened

but there is so much of vagueness around

it is stopping me to reach my destination

acting as hindrance in my path.

Sometimes I feel, what if this change did not take place,

would I have known this feeling that I feel now?

I never experienced this, there is a strange mixture

of what, even I do not know.

There is something true in this feeling, something different

It nurtures me and helps to grow

It helps me to carry on my path

It leads me to happiness and love.

Friends

This poem is dedicated to all my friends to let them know how special they are :)

I wrote it on 03/01/2005.

They taught me to laugh

They taught me to cry,

They came in my life to teach me something

Which I simply do not know why.

They showed me the bright side of things

They taught me the true meaning of life,

They taught me to live every moment to its fullest

And in any circumstances, never say die.

They became my strength

They became my weakness,

They were the ones whom I could rely on

And they always pulled me out of mess.

They taught me what happiness is

They taught me why to be sad,

They told everything happens for a reason

And after all it is not that bad.

They told me it was okay to cry at times

It was okay to express my feelings,

They taught me everyone needs love

And everyone needed the caring.

They taught me how to love

They taught me how to give,

They changed my life forever

Giving me a purpose to live.

Above all, they taught me how to love myself

And they are indeed great friends,

They came in my life to teach me something

Which I now know why.

You Love Me?

Just after few minutes of writing the earlier poem, I wrote this one.

You said you love me

I believed you.

Later you said you love me as a friend

I got confused.

You said you are not misleading me

I was disheartened.

I made my heart stronger,

I made it resistant to you.

Now you say you love me

I do not have the courage to ask,

"Which type of love is it now?"

I see something in your eyes

But I am afraid of misinterpreting,

And I can not let myself be weak this time

I can not let myself get hurt.

But I want to know,

I need to know!

May be it will be worth the pain,

After all, until you lose something, you never gain!

So once again I am opening the lock

And making myself vulnerable to you,

Please give the right answer this time

I really need to know.

"You Love Me?"

Beautiful Night

On 21st night at 11.30 pm, I sat down with my AI book, looked outside my balcony & wrote this poem.

The moon is shining bright

Up in the sky,

Sometimes hiding behind the clouds

Sometimes rising high.

The silence of the night

Spreads around me,

Instilling in me a calmness

That urges me to see.

The hidden beauties of nature

The unheard voices,

This feeling of belongingness

That was unknown to me.

I want to raise my hand

And touch this divinity,

I want to get lost

And unravel the mystery.

I want to look inside

And get to know what I want,

I want to realize the desire

I just want to be free.

Study Leave

"Study Leave" is an amazing time. I am doing almost everything except studying! Not that I do not think I have to study. Of course I do. But thinking and actually acting upon it are 2 entirely very different things! For example, after thinking a lot about it, finally I opened my Artificial Intelligence (AI) book today, looked through the index, then I thought it would be better if I first knew the syllabus ;D
So I came online. And then obviously I forgot my intention of coming online! And here I am blogging!


One of the best thing about study leave is that, my creativity flows during these times. I have written awesome stuffs when I should be actually studying. I think somehow our mind just finds a way to skip studies..& do what it wants to..or may be do nothing! Even if we actually sit down to study, somehow out-of-syllabus topics seems very interesting! That is exactly what I & my best friend were discussing yesterday. Ah! And that reminds me of how lucky she is now. She's doing her internship. Finally she has got rid of these stupid exams!


I really do not understand the purpose of these exams. Whole semester we are taught some stupid stuffs, and we have to mug it up & reproduce it during exams. Well, ok all right, everything they teach us might not be stupid, & may be since I am already from computer science background, I really feel bored studying the same stuffs again! And it is also not the case that I learn something, i.e., mug up something & just reproduce. Of course I understand what I study, just remember main points & write it in my own words. But many people do mug up. Point is, what is the use of all this? What exactly are we getting out of all this? We should be taught the practical applications, not just theoretical stuffs. College just loads us up with submissions n exams that we do not get time to do any research work if we want to do, it does not let us do what interests us, creates discrimination on the basis of grades, & what not! This education system is just not right!

Why is it that we have to follow or do what we do not want or do not like to do? I think the answer is just that..to get a decent job, to support our family, & after all, we have some responsibilities towards our parents also, who have done so much for us.


And in that case then, I should actually be studying right now rather than writing all this. So off I go. Ciao